30_March_2013 热
这天,我回到了麻坡,我的故乡,
有差不多三个月没回来了,
突然,就觉得麻坡是个好地方,
至少这里RM3就能吃得到东西,
至少这里我很熟悉,
至少这里有好多好多很值得想念的回忆,
至少这里, 我能活得更像自己。。
那天, 她突然来找我了,
而后,断断续续地,她都来找我了,
她, 我人生中唯一一次被女生抛弃的她。。
三个月前,她突然跟我说, 她想单身,
我没有挽留,那仅有的骨气和自尊,我还是有的。
分手时,我送了份生日礼物给她,
斑马纹的长方型盒子,铺上了紫色的花纸,
用黑白两色的巧克力打了个底,
配上的是一颗颗迷你棉花糖和一朵朵用葡萄做成的心型,
斑马纹盒子上, 附着一张我自己做的生日卡,
卡的封面是我自己画的,我们两个的合照。
(以前有post过,有兴趣可以自己找)
卡里写着,
如果哪天她后悔了,就信息我,
不管是什么内容,我就会从新再一次追回她。
然而,最近她突然信息我了,
可我没那个勇气做什么,
最近忙碌的生活,让我看清了我的无能,
我竟第一次没勇气做任何尝试。
那天晚上,
我无意听到了bruno mars 的新歌
《when I was your man》
很符合我心里的一首歌,
好久没那么让我想哭了。
When I was Your Man - Bruno Mars
Same bed, but it feels just a little bit bigger now
Our song on the radio, but it don't sound the same
When our friends talk about you all that it does is just tear me down
Cause my heart breaks a little when I hear your name
And it all just sound like uh, uh, uh
Hmmm too young, too dumb to realize
That I should have bought you flowers and held your hand
Should have gave you all my hours when I had the chance
Take you to every party cause all you wanted to do was dance
Now my baby is dancing, but she's dancing with another man.
My pride, my ego, my needs and my selfish ways
Caused a good strong woman like you to walk out my life
Now I never, never get to clean up the mess I made
And it haunts me every time I close my eyes
It all just sounds like uh, uh, uh, uh
Too young, too dumb to realize
That I should have bought you flowers and held your hand
Should have gave all my hours when I had the chance
Take you to every party cause all you wanted to do was dance
Now my baby is dancing, but she's dancing with another man.
Although it hurts I'll be the first to say that I was wrong
Oh, I know I'm probably much too late
To try and apologize for my mistakes
But I just want you to know
I hope he buys you flowers, I hope he holds your hand
Give you all his hours when he has the chance
Take you to every party cause I remember how much you loved to dance
Do all the things I should have done when I was your man!
Do all the things I should have done when I was your man!
我facebook把这首歌share给她了,
就像歌词写的,我想已经太迟了,
可是我还是希望能为了我以前的无知跟她道歉,
想让她知道,我希望有个比我更好的人,
买花给她,牵起她的手,
把他的时间都花在她身上,
希望那个更好的人,能对她更好。。
好吧。谢谢你的美好。
我们,就像某些悲伤的故事,
很有缘地在一起了,
却没有那个缘分一直走下去,
好吧,至少你是我21年来最喜欢的女生,
放下了,
把你跟我的照片都删了,
把你和我的信息都洗了,
把你送我的东西都丢了,
开花,不结果,我认了。。。
VIDEO
开花不结果-宇田
你忍着痛分开手
让我确定明天去或留
你会衷心祝福我
却你我的爱开花不结果
明明知道你爱我
对我付出从来不保留
我也想过说分手
让我话到嘴边开口太强求
如果爱我对你是一种折磨
你又何苦继续收受着困惑
如果想爱不是幸福的所有
你要放弃我无话可说
如果爱你对你是一种伤害
我会毫不犹豫转身就离开
如果天要下雨注定要分开
不过你我的爱开花不结果
明明知道你爱我
对我付出从来不保留
我也想过说分手
让我话到嘴边开口太强求
如果爱我对你是一种折磨
你又何苦继续承受着困惑
如果想爱不是幸福的所有
你要放弃我无话可说
如果爱你对你是一种伤害
我会毫不犹豫转身就离开
如果天要下雨注定要分开
不过你我的爱开花不结果
也许花开花谢也是种结果